And everytime my telephone rings, well I'll be damned.

I did what I had to do and ended things with Josh. Jenn told me to just completely stop talking to him, and that's what I intended but unfortunately he started IMing me when I was drunk. I was going to give him one more chance because he promised to "make it up to me" that he missed my birthday party, and I was going to let him. He asked me if he could come over to my house on Friday night to have a glass of wine before he had to go home to Lancaster (which I think is complete bullshit) and I told him that he could. He's never been to my house before; I would always go to him. So we were talking and he sends me some link called "indie-sex..." and said "isn't that hot?" and I didn't click on it because I wanted him to come over because he wanted to see me and not because he wanted to fuck me and I knew where it was going if he was sending me links to porn. So I didn't say anything and he didn't say anything for about 20 minutes so I asked him if he was coming over and he said "I don't know, I'll probably fall asleep." So I just started going crazy on him and I told him what he does to me and how crazy he makes me and how manipulative he is and he said that he's not using me and he just doesn't know how to prove it and so I said "then come over here and tell me!" and he said he couldn't and that he didn't know what he was doing to me and I said "bullshit" and that was it. It's over now. I'm sad about it.
Yesterday, my neighbor Billy who has a dog named Lucy came to my house to tell me that whatever I was listening to last night around 11:00 p.m. was really amazing and he needed to know what it was. (Beirut.) Then I showed him my Modest Mouse/Built to Spill music DVDs and he really liked them and he told me that I talk like I'm writing a diary. Billy is 52 years old but he seems like he is in his early to mid thirties. We are friends now and I love his dog Lucy so much.
Liam came over last night and I feel very bad for him because he is in love with me (he told me so) and I just think of him as a friend and I take extra special care not to lead him on but I don't think it's working. We had fun regardless, though, and I made delicious drinks (sprite, malibu, calico jack, o.j., and cranberry juice) and snorted percs and had a fun night all around except when it got time to go to bed and he was too drunk to leave so I let him sleep in my bed with me but fell asleep super early so he wouldn't try anything and he didn't because he is a very nice boy. He kissed my cheek when he left this morning.
I start my new job today officially. I've been training the last couple of days at a bar/grille as a server and today is the day I will make money. I hope I make a lot of money because I am flying out to San Francisco on May 19th and then Jenn, Mitch, Dave the Barbarian and I will be driving back to Pennsylvania and I will need lots of money for that. Plus I have to pay for a new driver's license and my registration as well as a very expensive speeding ticket AND my bills for the next three months. Oh god. I'll never be able to do all of that in a month.
My friend Jon is coming to visit me on Tuesday from North Carolina. Last time he came here (which was a couple of weeks ago) we left huge hickies on each other by accident and then I had to go to school and he had to go to back to his Army stuff and it was embarrassing but really funny. We are just friends but we like to make out with each other. He doesn't slobber all over my face and I am glad for that. There is nothing worse than a bad kisser.
Alright, time to end this poorly written rambling..I have to go to work! Wish me luck.